The Cure for Anxiety and Fear in These History-making Times!
If you hang in until the end, there is a reward of amazing stories that are like healing medicine for the soul.
In the last section of Matthew 6, verses 25-34, Christ deals with a subject that immediately concerns each one of us especially in these times. I don’t think there is anyone who does not have anxiety over something especially in our current climate. For various reasons, we are guilty of worrying — about our children, over certain material things, about our safety, about our health, about our job security, etc., and we yield to anxiety about our future security. This is increasing as we see the end approaching.
The first thing I would like to do is to read the passage that we are going to study. Then we will look at it in its context and we will see what Christ is trying to get across. Matthew 6:25-34:
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
Quite a passage, isn’t it? Please remember how it begins: “therefore.” In other words, to understand this passage, we need to understand what Christ has said before. There are three things here that have been said before. In verses 19-21, He has told us that we are not to store up for ourselves treasure on this earth. That is the first thing He tells us. The second thing is in verses 22-23: “Walk in the light and not in darkness.” Notice the contrast. The third thing He says is in verse 24: “You cannot serve two opposite masters. You cannot serve God and self (which is what money represents here) at the same time.”
Please notice the contrast in these three things. It is the contrast between a believer and an unbeliever. An unbeliever gets his material security in his bank account, in what he stores up on this earth. A Christian’s security is not in the bank account but in heaven. Number two, a Christian walks in the light as Christ is in the light. An unbeliever walks in darkness. Number three, a Christian has God as his Lord and Master, whereas the unbeliever depends on self.
What Christ is saying is, if you apply these principles, then you will not worry. The King James Version says, “take no thought.” That is not the best translation because Christ is not saying that you should not think about these things. What He is saying is that you should not worry about these things. Jesus says, “O you of little faith.”
With this in mind, let’s go and look at two things that this text is not saying. I’ve already mentioned one: Christ is not saying, not forbidding that we should not think about these things. In verse 26, He says:
“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns....”
They are concerned about eating, but they do not worry. The second thing we must be clear on is that Christ is not here denying forethought. We read in other passages of the Bible where He says (Proverbs 6:6-8):
”Go to the ant, you sluggard; consider its ways and be wise! It has no commander, no overseer or ruler, yet it stores its provisions in summer and gathers its food at harvest.”
What does the ant do? It stores up food for the winter. Remember that God is not saying that we should not think about these things or plan for the future. He is saying that we should not worry, that is the issue here. With this in mind, let us go to the passage itself and see what it says.
Number one, when you become a Christian, you turn from self-dependence to God-dependence. How much is God concerned about you? Is He only concerned about spiritual things or is He concerned about what we eat, drink, and what we wear? He is concerned about everything! Because of this, we should not worry about what we eat or drink — even if we are without a job we need to remember that God sometimes allows this, that our faith may be developed. Notice that the problem that He expresses is found in verse 30:
“O you of little faith.”
In other words, what Christ is saying in this passage is, “Please, I want your faith to become strong through these trials and difficulties that you will face regarding the world, material things, regarding a home, regarding clothing, regarding food.”
Three problems are created by this passage that we must be aware of. Number one, faith in God is what Christ is requiring from the believer. That does not mean that we should not earn our own livelihood. It does not mean that we should sit down and do nothing and God will open the windows of heaven and pour down food and clothing (although He does sometimes miraculously do this as I have witnessed myself). I want to give you a passage where the New Testament is clear. The birds, for example, do they sit down and wait for the grain to be poured into their mouth? No. They have to scratch for it, look for it. Turn to 2 Thessalonians 3 and I want to show you where certain Christians had misused this kind of thinking and were doing nothing but waiting for God or others to supply their needs. We will begin with verse 6, through verse 10:
“In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, we command you, brothers, to keep away from every brother who is idle and does not live according to the teaching you received from us. For you yourselves know how you ought to follow our example. We were not idle when we were with you, nor did we eat anyone’s food without paying for it. On the contrary, we worked night and day, laboring and toiling so that we would not be a burden to any of you. We did this, not because we do not have the right to such help, but in order to make ourselves a model for you to follow. For even when we were with you, we gave you this rule: ‘If a man will not work, he shall not eat.’”
So please remember (and this is a command coming from Jesus) that Jesus did not mean that faith simply sits down and does nothing. You have to work; faith is not saying that you do not work. Faith is saying, “Do not worry.” Do not confuse working with worrying.
The number two problem is that faith in God does not mean that we have no responsibility to our brother. What do I mean by that? If you see somebody having a hard time financially, materially, we must not say, “Well, God will take care of him,” because God takes care of him through us. Let me give you a text — James 1:27. In fact, you need to read the whole of James. Chapter 2 brings this out in a very interesting way. James talks about a person in need and you say to that person, “I will pray for you” and you do nothing about it, your prayers are meaningless. Now James 1:27 is one of my favorite passages that defines Christianity in its practical outworking:
“Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.”
Please notice “to look after orphans and widows.” What James is saying is that faith does not mean that, when we see others in trouble, that we say, “God will take care of them.” Remember that God often helps others through us. We are the instruments of God. So we must not use this passage in the Sermon on the Mount to say to those in need, “God says He will take care of His people like He takes care of the birds,” and walk away from the needy.
Number three, faith in God does not mean exemption from trouble. A Christian will face material problems. A Christian will face all kinds of problems — familial, financial, physical, social. Look at Paul. Was he in prison? Yes. Was he shipwrecked? Yes. Did he have physical problems to face? Yes. But he put his faith in God. Why does God allow these things to happen? How can your faith increase unless it is tried? James said the same thing, “The trying of your faith develops endurance.” James 1:2-4:
”Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
Please remember this when you are going through stress, disappointments, and hardships. Remember that if God does not seem to answer your prayers, there are two things you will feel like doing. You will feel like saying, “God doesn’t love me. God is not taking care of me. I had better turn from God dependence to myself.” That is the last thing we should do. Why? Because God’s love for us is everlasting. He will never let us down.
The second thing that can happen is that, no matter what happens, I will hold on. I know that God will never let me down. The best example I can give you is Jesus Christ. Did Jesus feel forsaken of God on the cross? Yes. But by faith He was victorious. When we face hardships, remember it is not because God does not see and provide for our needs; it is because He wants our faith to develop. We are going to face a crisis one of these days just before Jesus returns to take us to heaven which is our home, when God will allow Satan a time to persecute His people. God will remove all the protection and He has to produce a people whose faith is unshakeable. But first God has to develop that kind of faith in us. In this context, I would like now to turn to Matthew 10:29-31. This is Jesus talking:
”Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father.”
This may not mean anything to you but in the Middle East they sometimes use sparrows for eating. They make soup out of them or they may use them for sacrifice. A farthing was the price tag in those days. Continuing with verse 30:
”And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.”
So please remember that your faith must not dwindle. That is why Paul tells us in Romans 8:28, “All things work together for good”:
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
God allows everything to happen to us not because He wants to see us suffer but He wants to develop faith in a people who will one day reach the goal. With this in mind, go back to Matthew 6:31-32. Now he gives the application. First He gives the counsel not to worry about what we eat, drink, and wear (verse 31), then He gives examples. The first example is the “birds of the air.” I just watched an episode of 60 Minutes with my children on the famine in Somalia. You likely know the situation well. I was trying to do that mom thing where you tell your kids “do you see how these Somalian children are starving? So please eat all your food at dinner tonight and do not be picky!”
In the episode, you could see the Somalian people were starving but the birds flying around in the background were not starving at all. I think of all the problems I stress about and they pale when I see the Somalians suffering. But all problems, large and small, may be boiled down to two things. One is a lack of faith on my part and, two, could it be that God is trying to develop a people (develop faith in me)?
Birds are not like us. God takes care of them. But the birds do not have the power of either faith or unbelief. But us? God wants our response to Him to be from the heart. He does not want us to become automatic robots. He created human beings with the power of choice. I want to take you to a very important incident to help you realize what the application is all about. Christ said in Matthew 6:31:
”So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’”
Please turn to Genesis. I want to show where this all began. God created man, Adam and Eve, and God did something for man in Genesis 2:8. What did God do for our first parents?
”Now the Lord God had planted a garden in the east, in Eden; and there he put the man he had formed.”
Who planted the garden? God. For whom? Adam and Eve. God said to Adam and Eve, “I will take care of you. I will supply your needs.” Between that text and the next text, which is Genesis 3:19, something happened. We call it “the fall.” In verse 19, the same God says to Adam and Eve:
”By the sweat of your brow you will eat your food until you return to the ground, since from it you were taken; for dust you are and to dust you will return.”
What happened? What is sin really? Sin is turning our back to God. Sin is becoming self-dependent. Before Adam sinned, he was God-dependent. God supplied all his needs. When he sinned, he became self-dependent. That is why every human ideology is based on self. Whether it is communism, which failed miserably, whether it is humanism that enveloped this country long ago, it is all based on self. A Christian has turned from self-dependence to God-dependence. In other words, it is no longer your headache; you have to work, but it is not our problem to worry about. The man who is self-dependent has to worry.
Let me put it another way. The fundamental issue all through the history of the Bible is over this issue of self-dependence versus God-dependence. Bring it down to the spiritual level and it is salvation by works versus salvation by faith. These two have been in conflict all through the ages. The first evidence of the conflict was between Cain and Abel. Both of them offered a sacrifice. Cain was depending on his sacrifice for salvation and Abel offered a sacrifice of faith. He offered a lamb, depending on Christ. What did Cain do to Abel? He killed him. And it seems that all through history that salvation by works (or legalism) has won the battle.
Why did the Jews crucify Christ? Because His works were better than theirs. He was telling them that they could not save themselves. He told Nicodemus, “You have to be born again.” So they crucified Him. This conflict reveals itself in many ways. I believe that, in the last days, a show-down will take place. The conflict over self-dependence and God-dependence will take place over the issue of Sunday and the Sabbath. We must not make the issue over days. We must make the issue over what the days represent.
Sunday will symbolize self-dependence. And if you will look at the philosophy of these two days — the principles — you will notice they are opposite. With Sunday, man first works and then he rests. And he rests, not because his work is finished, not because his work is perfect, but because there is a break. His work is never perfect and it is never finished. Sunday will symbolize salvation by self-dependence. In the Sabbath issue, Adam did not begin by working. The first day in Adam’s life was God’s Sabbath. Adam began by resting. As long as Adam rested in God, God supplied all his needs. And this will be the fundamental issue in the last days. The issue is not between Sunday-keeping Christians and Sabbath-keeping Christians; that is not the issue. I know that I have been very convicted as I study these things that I have often been a Sabbath-keeper-in-day-only but on Sabbath and the rest of the week I worry myself into a Sunday-keeper at heart. Are we really entering into God’s rest or are we continuing to think that we are keeping the Sabbath but our self-dependence is destroying our Sabbath experience. I pose the question here and now: does that really mean that we are a Sabbath-keeper? No. It means that we are not keeping the Sabbath and missing the point of the Sabbath altogether.
In the end of time, the issue will be clearly settled that the Sabbath will represent all of those who are resting in God by faith. Sunday will symbolize all those who are resting in their own dependence — or salvation by works. That is why it is important that we understand what Christ is saying here. “Therefore” meaning “if you are depending upon God.” Now verse 31 (of Matthew 6):
“So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’”
Verse 32:
“For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.”
Remember that the word “pagans” (“Gentiles” in some translations) has two meanings in the New Testament. The word “pagans” can mean a non-Jew — that is one definition. The second definition of the word is “an unbeliever,” those who do not believe in Christ. It is in this context that He is using the word “pagans.” In other words, the unbeliever worries about what he shall wear, what he shall eat, what will happen for tomorrow. Why does the pagan worry? Because they are depending on themselves and they cannot provide. They are not sure of their future, they are not sure that the banks will take care of their money. They are not sure that they are financially secure.
I have a friend who was approached to make a very lucrative investment into a resort in the Caribbean Islands. However, his wife was opposed to the investment but my friend could not resist the investment because it was supposed to have such profitable gains. So, my friend invested nearly half a million dollars into this resort with the hope of making his financial situation more secure in the future. This was because he often worried about his financial future and he wanted to prove to all of his friends that he was a good businessman. Totally unpredictably, a huge hurricane hit the Caribbean Island and totally decimated the resort in which my friend had invested.
He learned a huge lesson after that: we must not worry. We may make wrong decisions, we may make right decisions; God is not saying that we must not invest. Sometimes it seems that you can’t help but worry but we must not allow that worry to overrule and destroy our faith. Therefore Christ is saying in verse 32, “It is the unbelievers’ privilege to worry about these things, but your heavenly Father knows that you have need of all these things.”
What then should we seek? The pagan seeks his security, his personal security. What should the believer seek? Here in verse 33 is the contrast:
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
And when I take the counsel of this beloved verse and apply it to my life, I have to take all the counsel that He gave in the previous verses too. To seek the kingdom of God means to put your treasure in heaven and not on earth. To seek the kingdom of God means walking in the Light. To seek the kingdom of God is to serve God and not self — to be God-dependent. We must seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness. What does it mean to seek God’s righteousness? It is righteousness by faith. What is man’s righteousness? Let me give you a text that will show this. Turn to Romans 9:30-31, where Paul talks about two righteousnesses:
”What then shall we say? That the Gentiles, who did not pursue righteousness, have obtained it, a righteousness that is by faith; but Israel, who pursued a law of righteousness, has not attained it.”
“Gentiles” here means non-Jew, but they are believers. What is the law of righteousness? How does one attain to the law of righteousness? What does the law say to you? Those who do it shall live. Look at Romans 10:5, where Paul explains the two righteousnesses:
Moses (he represents the Law) describes in this way the righteousness that is by the law: “The man who does these things will live by them.”
How many of you have kept the Law perfectly? (No one is implied.) Then you have failed. Now Paul is not talking here about the Law as a standard of Christian living. We must never confuse the two. He is talking of attaining to righteousness by your works. Now look back up at verse 4 because it tells of righteousness by faith:
“Christ is the end of the law so that there may be righteousness for everyone who believes.”
In Christ we have the righteousness of God. Let me give another example. In Philippians 3:9 Paul describes the same kind of thing:
“...And be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ — the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.”
Paul is teaching the same thing that Christ is teaching in Matthew: “Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness.” How do we seek the righteousness of God? By faith. “And all these things will be given to you as well.” Righteousness by faith does not simply mean spiritual things. It means that we no longer worry about material things. We no longer worry about the future because righteousness by faith puts our lives in the hands of God. This is what Christ said in the beginning: “Is not your life more important than these things?” Your life is now in the hands of God and if God allows you to be hungry or in pain, accept it. If God says, “I want you to die as a martyr,” accept it, because you have put yourself in His hands. I know this is hard to read. I know firsthand that suffering is a very difficult thing to accept. I suffer every single day with an immune deficiency disease and autoimmune diseases. The treatment for my disease is brutal and half the month I am sick because of the side effects of the treatment. I have chronic infections and I have sustained some organ damage due to this. For years I fought accepting the pain but one day the Holy Spirit impressed upon me the thought, “I have to learn to accept this pain because fighting it is ruining my life.” We need Jesus to live in us and teach us what acceptance means to each one of us.
Now to verse 34: “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
We don’t have to worry about the future. God is not saying that we should not plan for the future, but do not worry about the future. I get email messages every day from some company that is promising me that, if I invest in their program, they will take care of my future. Even if you invest your money in gold, it will be valueless in the time of trouble. Christ wants the believers (remember, the Sermon on the Mount is for believers) to be totally dependent upon God — through hard times or easy times. Our faith must be resting in God not only for righteousness in terms of our vertical relationship but in terms of our horizontal needs.
It is my belief that the cure for anxiety is righteousness by faith because it leads us to take our eyes off of self and put them on Jesus Christ. When we learn that of my own self I can do nothing and my salvation is completely the work of the Lord it takes the pressure off of me. Righteousness by faith gives me peace with God and it gives me peace in terms of my future and in terms of material needs and that is the joy of the gospel. That is the kind of people that God wants. When we keep our eyes on Jesus we need not fear for the future except we forget how He has led us in the past. We must remember that God is a loving Father who has great empathy for our suffering. In fact, He suffers more when we suffer because He loves us that much and has infinite empathy and feels our pain and suffering deeper than we do. 1 John 4:15-16 says:
“Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God. And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him.”
This is a promise that if we confess our belief in Christ that He will come and live in us. We become the temple of the living God and, over time, God will grow us up to be mature Christians. However, we cannot get discouraged when we feel that we are not making any progress. The more we see the purity of Christ, the more we will feel undeserving of God’s love and/or more and more sinful. That is Christian progress. This is why we must not trust our feelings when it comes to our salvation because we will be led into utter hopelessness. We have to keep our eyes on Jesus Christ and what He has done on the Cross and what He is doing in heaven.
I have so many stories of God being in control of my own life from standing in the face of a fire that was threatening my home to circumstances threatening the life of my children. But, today, I will start with someone else’s story.
The following is a true account. Laura Holiday was on a trip with her professor from Stanford Univeristy. Laura, who had a terrifying fear of tsunamis her entire life asked her professor the chances of being killed by a tsunami. Her entire life she had reoccurring nightmares of being caught up in a tsunami. Since junior high school she had these nightmares. Her professor often laughed at her and said, “Laura you have less than a zero percent chance of dying in a tsunami!” However, statistics were cold comfort for her.
In Job, the Bible fleshes out the principle of what we fear often comes upon us. “What I feared has come upon me; what I dreaded has happened to me.” Job 3:25. Our fears give power to the evil one and our anxieties cause us to loose faith so that often times we will see our fears come to pass.
Laura just so happened to travel to Thailand in 2004 for one of the worst tsunamis in recorded history. This tsunami that occurred was caused by an underground megathrust earthquake. A series of massive tsunami waves grew up to 30 meters (~100 ft) high as they headed inland after being created by the underwater seismic activity offshore. Nearly 300,000 people would die during this catastrophic event.
The tsunami hit Laura like a dark, muddy, uncontrollable force and separated her from her friends. She was alone, disoriented, and she thought that maybe she was in a dream when the water hit her full force.
Laura was underwater when the reality of the situation hit her. She thought to herself, “I must be pinned by something because my chest feels like I am being crushed.” Then she realized that she was not being crushed but she was, in fact, drowning. Her lungs were in pain as they were filling with water. Her worst fear had come true! She was in the middle of a tsunami. Her worst nightmare was happening.
She started to panic and realized that death was beginning to wash over her. She was thinking of her parents and how sad they will be when they find out that she was killed in a tsunami. However, in those moments she thought, “hey, this isn't as awful as I thought it would be! I do not want to die in a state of panic.” So Laura prayed to God. She immediately felt a sense of peace come over her and she felt that, even if she did die, it was okay. Laura accepted God’s plan for her life even if her life was shortened. She desired to be totally God-dependent and not self-dependent. She completely surrendered her life to God and she realized in those dying moments that she was no longer afraid. The current of the water pushed her with a powerful shove so that all the heavy objects moved off of her. Laura felt the Lord giving her His strength to fight for her life against a watery grave. She would not let her fears swallow her up.
My worst fear for many years was to see my children suffer and, in the flesh, it still is. I may be sick with a chronic illness but, like most of us parents, as long as my children are happy and healthy then life is good. My children have always been the untouchable thing in my spiritual experience. God could allow me to pass through trials but, in my heart, I felt that He better not cause my children to suffer because I did not think I, or my faith, could survive my children experiencing any level of suffering. How many times do we put conditions on our allegiance to God or decide to be Christian only in the good times? But God did allow trials to come to my children and I found out that what I thought would destroy me brought us closer together as a family. I felt the grace of God bringing me through what I had feared the most.
I had heard of a missionary woman who was captured and brutalized and starved in an enemy prison camp. For many years she survived under the worst conditions that the human mind can imagine or grapple with. But, at last, she was rescued and was set free! However, after she was made free a strange thing happened. Years after she was made free someone asked her, “do you miss the prison?” What a strange question! But an even more strange reply followed. The missionary woman responded, “I miss the prison all the time. I have never felt God as close to me as I did in that prison.” I was always baffled by this until I went through my own worst nightmare scenario and I felt the Spirit of God in a strong way.
Back to Laura Holiday’s story: she faced her fear of a tsunami and survived it. She nearly met a watery grave with hundreds of pounds of rubble and debris on top of her but God intervened and gave her His strength to accept her circumstances and press onward Not only did God grow her through acceptance but God sent Laura a lovely French woman to help her, protect her, and help her contact her parents oversees.
Laura was completely unable to do anything for herself. She was as a weak, newborn, runt-of-the-litter-kitten. She was totally powerless and dependent on the kindness of others to move her from place to place over the vast wreckage and debris the tsunami had created. But this loving French woman never left Laura’s side no matter how difficult the journey became. She would sometimes even carry Laura until they reached the make-shift hospitals that were erected by relief agencies to deal with the mass of people who were injured and facing death. The French woman would sit with Laura through the long days and nights in the make-shift hospitals. She, the French woman, wanted to make sure that Laura was getting good care for her injuries so that Laura would survive. She contacted Laura’s parents and urged them to do all they could to help Laura get out of the make-shift hospitals and into a real hospital. Without this French woman’s help, Laura would have surely met her death while lying on a hospital gurney. But she took care of Laura every step of the way. When Laura was too weak to speak, she advocated for Laura and fought for her medical treatment.
The French woman is symbolic of Christ’s role toward us as we face our own fears. He is there to carry us, encourage us to keep going, advocate for us, and deliver us when we would die without His operating our every move. But, over all of this, He is most concerned with growing our character so that we are completely God-dependent and not self-dependent because He wants to take us all home to live with Him.
Whoever may be reading this, I implore you to look around your circumstances and recognize that God has allowed this for some reason. When God allows suffering, inspired writers sometimes call this, “God’s strange act,” because God is NOT the author of anxiety or suffering but He allows it for our sake because He loves us and He wants us to exchange our lives for His life so that we will have eternal life. Our anxiety and our anger are often thermometers of what is going on in our hearts so that we may have a very real indicator and wake-up call to tell us if we are living life as God-dependent or self-dependent. How are you living your life? Is your “heart failing you for fear.” Are you overrun with fear?
The answer is to accept the circumstances that God has allowed in your life today. Take these circumstances one day at a time or even moment by moment and use fear, anger, and anxiety to determine whether or not you are living life as God-dependent or self-dependent. When you discover that you are living life as a self-dependent individual pray this prayer, “Lord, take my heart for I am incapable of giving it. Keep it for Yourself for I am incapable of keeping it.” When you pray this prayer, it is impossible to be lost. Jesus will always find you right where you are and save you. It doesn’t matter if you are found in the bed of a prostitute or believing that you are holy at Mecca, Jesus Christ WILL find you where you are at and save you. If you desire to be saved, being lost is an impossibility. That is a Biblical promise from the Word of God.
I will end this here because I could go on and on. My friends, this is the gospel. Some have tried to silence me from sharing this and other aspects of the gospel but we must not be silenced especially in this unprecedented historical time of fear and anxiety. It the enemy who wants us to be quieted from sharing the gospel.
If you are interested in learning more about the gospel and righteousness by faith, this is the most encouraging series that you need to go through now that we have all had some time free up. If you want to learn God-dependence then please go through this series and be blessed: